The day my brother died.

SENT MESSAGE:

Alissa Jennie Muhlestein June 26, 2009 at 5:29pm

Not really. My brother Rusten died today. I cant handle this. Its fine though dont worry.

I just found this in my sent messages from June 26th, 2009 at 5:29pm... Somebody asked me if I was okay, just randomly. Maybe I was acting sad or something. I wouldn't doubt it. This was about 2 hours after I found out my 26 year old brother Rusten, passed away at about 1:30am in his bed. I was in shock. I remember sitting in front of my house on the porch, on the ground, my knees tucked into my chest, with the phone in my hand, crying, barely holding on, trying my hardest to dial Brianna Koller (My best friend who has helped me through a lot) and I finally did it. It rang, and she answered. She knew. I cried. She comforted me. I thank god for her every day. She helped me more then she could ever imagine. Thank you Brianna. 

I love you all.